That's not to say that I don't like
being called the "Queen of Indies". I also feel a bit
proud of myself when I finish working on a hardcore film.
For example, when I got whipped in an SM film, the first
thing that goes on my mind is "Owww!" but I get this sense
of completeness once it's over, so I end up thinking "It did
hurt, but it felt good too."
And since I played a "teased character", getting
hurt and crying actually boosts sales. Even the director tells me
to "give us your crying face again today!" without really
thinking hard about it.
It does make me wish that he experienced what I had
to go through though (laughs). But still, given how I've starred
in numerous videos with that type of content in them, I guess I
do have a masochistic streak in me.
I can truthfully say that I don't mind being tied up
as long as it doesn't go much further than that, and I get turned
on when people talk dirty to me. And since I star in a lot of SM
tapes, most of the male actors are middle-aged, so I guess they
get tired out too (laughs).
Yeah, I think I really do like older men though, so
I guess it works out for me. I think older men find me more attractive
than the young ones so maybe that's why I work with so many older
I know that most girls would rather be with the cool
looking guys, but I feel uncomfortable around them. So if they asked
me if I'd rather take some star or a regular guy, I'd take the regular
guy in a heartbeat.
Those are the types of men that I work
with the most and I'm always disappointed that I don't get the chance
to speak to them very often. I always wonder what they do for a
living while I'm with them. I think I want to have some sort of
party with them one of these days so I can have an excuse to ask
them questions (laughs).
I liked to masturbate ever since I was small and I started
way back in 5th grade. The reason I started was that I found the
porno tapes that my dad hid away and I got turned on while I watched
them. That's what started my habit of touching myself while in the